This morning is better than last night. I feel rested. I’m not sure when I went to sleep. I know I fell asleep with the laptop in my lap. I know I did because I woke up that way. I had been trying to edit my previous post for errors, but after realizing that I, literally, couldn’t keep myself awake I closed the laptop, put it on my desk, and went to sleep for real.

I know I had a dream. I don’t remember what it was about, but I know there was blood it in. A wound of some sort, and I remember being confused about it. I didn’t feel pain, but there was so much blood.

I haven’t been awake for very long, so there’s not much to talk (type) about. Scarlet is next to me being adorable. I’ve already had my breakfast of eggs with mushrooms, salsa, and chedder cheese. I’m working on my cup of coffee, and my vitamin has been vanquished.

I feel like I should go over yesterday again because my post last night was so agitated and, in a way, tainted. I want to set that right before moving forward.

Yesterday was a productive day. I got most of the walk cycle blocked out in the animation. Tre said that it felt sort of ‘toy’ like which I feel has to do with timing and spacing. The arms move too far for the amount of time that I have given the action. This makes the character feel ‘light’ because it is moving in a way that seems to be relatively fast.

If I make the arms move less, and make them move over a greater length of time, it will feel heavier, as if the character has more weight. Heavy things tend to be slower.

It’s fun to think about things like that. I’m playing around with a 3D character. There is no weight. There is no substance. I am creating an illusion through movement. I am creating my own world. I love it. It makes something inside me extremely happy.

I know I mentioned my fear over starting the animation. That fear, that primal urge to run away, was very real and I almost messaged Tre saying that with my work load I wouldn’t be able to do work on the project, just for a reason to back out of it. But I didn’t, and I’m glad I didn’t.

I had forgotten how much I enjoy animation. I had forgotten that if I ever end up working at a studio that I want to be a Technical Animator.

I had forgotten how much fun I had creating my first ever animation when I took 3D Foundations.

I forgot there is a reason Elieen still shows my Juice Box animation. And my lip sync animation. It’s because they came out really well, so she shows them as examples of what previous students were able to accomplish.

I had forgotten how I was going to create a second reel after my graduation, animating all of my characters on my own so I could have a rigging / animation reel.

I had forgotten a lot of things in the face of Fear and Time, and I’m glad I was able to remember all of those things.

So that was a pretty huge step in a positive direction for me. I finished another script, which is super, uber fantastic. I totally gave myself a high five.

Finishing a project would turn the end of the world into a good day for me. I love those feelings of accomplishment.

I got to see Sensei Beata and Jan yesterday, and Richard, Mr. Butterfly. I was only able to stay for one class, but I’m glad I went. I felt a bit lame for having not made it to the gym. I am supposed to be trying to put in two hours each day, one for the dojo and one for the gym. But not sleeping well throws everything off. I’m glad I was able to get through as much as I did with how tired I felt all day.

Those were really the main events of yesterday. I cooked some broccoli. I cut up some chicken to marinate, so I’ll be cooking that later today. I plan to make some chocolate covered almonds.

I need to do my reading for school, and block out the colors for my IF assignment. I didn’t stitch last night, but because today is a low key day, no labs so it’s basically a day off, I am going to stitch before starting the reading.

I’m supposed to run a mile today, which might happen before I do anything else, and then there’s aikido open class at 7 followed by weapons at 8. I’m going to stay for both I think. I would really like working with the bokken more, though I’m not sure if that’s what we’ll actually be learning.

Anyway, I’m just rambling now. Leave it to me to write two pages worth of, “The only thing I did today was wake up.”

I’m off to do things, and stuff, and more things.

*Bows* Domo arigato gozaimashita!