I’m sitting here looking at a blank Word document page and I’m thinking about all of the things that I could / should write about, and I don’t know the words to use. I feel content. Peaceful. Relaxed. There is a calmness in my mind that doesn’t require expression, that sort of feels like expressing in words will cheapen the sensation. There are no words that will be able to capture everything, and so it should be left, as is, pure and untouched within my mind.

I feel as if I should be sitting on a porch swing, looking out over a vast expanse of green in the early afternoon, a light breeze kissing against my skin as I allow the swing to rock back and forth lazily, my mind wondering, no higher level thinking. No problem solving.

As I’m sitting in this fictitious setting the memories of the previous day come back to me.

After work on Saturday I went to the hookah lounge where DM works. We sat with two of his friends for a while chatting about our previous school experience, work, games, and relationships.

We all ended up going back to DM’s apartment and played Munchkin. It was great. I actually ended up winning which is a whole story in itself.

My main takeaway from the game was that DM and I can hang out with other people and not have it be sexual, which is something that I feel contrasts my relationship with Sir.

I feel with Sir socializing with new people was always for the end goal of new play partners. Even if a person came over and it did not lead to anything sexual it was sort of like an interview. Could we potentially be involved with this person?

Saturday night / Sunday morning wasn’t about that at all. It seriously was just about hanging out and having a fun time. I enjoyed it.

My character was pretty crazy. I ended up being a halfbreed dwarf hafling as well as a super-munchkin wizard / theif. I had a crap ton of gear, too. But for the longest time I was the lowest level, so even though I could kill pretty much anything on my own, I wasn’t getting monster cards that would let me level.

It was a really close game. We all eventually got to level nine and trying to get the final kill so we could win the game. Any time someone would flip a monster card the other three players would mess it up and play trap cards to try to keep the other person from being able to level and win the game.

When it was DM’s turn, I ended up taking his class away, which took away his ability to wear several pieces of his gear which meant he couldn’t kill the monster and win. He jokingly said, “You’re so not getting any tonight.” To which I replied, “Well, at least you know it’s not about the sex.”

He smiled and rolled his eyes while I cracked up.

We’ve been talking about that. How we want our interaction to be based on friendship, not just a physical interaction. So far I think we’re doing alright.

In the morning we went and got donuts for the apartment. I ended up leaving for a while to take care of chores. DM’s roommate was going to be running a Pathfinder campaign later in the evening. I was invited to sit and be a spectator for if I wanted so I could get a feel for how the campaign I will be involved in next Sunday would go.

So I left and went to the gym. I biked for about 8 miles, rowed for 1.24 miles, and then jogged for about .75 miles.

It was nice getting back to the gym. I didn’t do as awesome as I have in the past, but that’s ok. I’m happy I went.

After the gym I went back to my apartment. I know Scarlet has been missing me since I haven’t been staying at home as much. I cuddled with her and ended up taking a two hour nap. When I woke up I cleaned out my car, and figured out my to-do list.

I finally got around to vacuuming it out, so my car is back to being clean, at least on the inside. I need to wash it, but I’ll save that for a different day / weekend. I went to the store afterwards for food. I was able to keep it to $40, so I think I’ll be able to survive through the next two weeks with my super reduced budget.

I have $20 in savings I could transfer over if it comes to that. I’m going to try to avoid doing that though.

I came back home after shopping and put food away, cleaned the dishes, cleaned my room a bit, and went through my email since I’ve been ignoring that. Eventually I showered and went back to DM’s apartment to watch the game.

His roommate, John, made margaritas for everyone, which were awesome. The drink helped with the anxiety my inner introvert was feeling. There were five other people there, and though I’ve seen all but one of them before, I’ve never really hung out with any of them except DM’s brother, Gabe.

After the first round of drinks John added in frozen strawberries to the margaritas. There was only enough alcohol for 3 drinks per person, but that was enough for me. I wouldn’t have taken another.

There was also pizza for dinner. So we all got to eat, drink, and play the game. It was fun watching them interact and role-play their characters. Gabe was such a clown the whole time. I really like his character. He reminds me of my younger brother so much.

It was a pretty humors encounter. Their party was attacked by three swarms of snakes, so like… 900 snakes in total. Their party got away, but it was still interesting to see how their characters reacted.

I’m looking forward to next Sunday when I’ll get to legitimately be part of it.

After everyone ended up leaving DM and I tried to play Soul Caliber for a little bit, but my head was hurting from drinking alcohol and not drinking enough water to counter my workout earlier.

So we ended up watching Doctor Who, the very first, original black and white episode. We actually watched two of them. I liked it. The acting was so much different back then than it is today.

My headache ended up going away, though I wasn’t able to sleep very well. Like… I slept all night, but it wasn’t a very deep sleep, so when my alarm went off at 8 this morning I didn’t feel rested enough to start my day.

DM got up around 10 and let me sleep for longer. I got out of bed around noon and felt so much better for it. Getting the extra REM cycles made all the difference.

I showered, had a donut for breakfast, spent some time with DM and then came to work. He actually walked me all the way to my car since I had to park pretty far away from his apartment due to all of the visitor parking spots being taken.

He said he was going to go to the leasing office and talk to them about the issue of residents using visitor parking. I don’t think either of us really see things changing, but at least we can say we tried.

I have aikido and taekwondo today, which I’ll actually be able to get to. Huzzah! So overall I’m not sad that I didn’t go to the gym this morning. I’ll make up for it tonight.

And that has been my time so far.

I need to do some heavy meditation, but I feel like I’m doing ok.