Yesterday was sort of lame.

I didn’t get to sleep until 5am, and still woke up at 7am to do laundry. You know it’s going to be a rough day when you’re too tired to finish your coffee.

I packed up all the laundry and left the apartment. I took vinegar with me because I read online that you can use white vinegar to whiten cloths instead of bleach. So I was going to try that with my gi and hope that I didn’t mess anything up.

I had started writing my Challenge post, but didn’t post it until after I was at the laundry mat. I wanted to get there before everyone else did, which is why I go so early in the morning.

It was a dreary day, which didn’t help to wake me up.

It was a little rough reading my old ‘Self Talk’ assignments. I actually did end up finding one older than the one I posted about. That was was even worse. I listed 20 things I said to myself back then. It was hard to read, to remember those feelings.

But it was inspiring to see my positive affirmations, and to know that even though I struggled with them at first, that they stuck. That they seriously changed my life and that I’m a better, stronger person for having changed my out look.

So that was rewarding.

I didn’t have much drive for anything, so I created a new Pinerest board. I really enjoyed the ‘Strong’ IF Challenge where I drew the women in the yoga pose. It was a lot like figure drawing. So I made a board where pinned a bunch of cool poses that I wanted to draw.

That took me up to the point where laundry was done. My gi isn’t as white as I thought it would be, but I think it is a little whiter… I don’t know. Maybe a little bleach wouldn’t be a bad thing. It’s icky looking from so much sweat. Even a little blood. No tears yet, so it’s not fully broken in.

I came back home. I didn’t put the cloths away. My shin had started bothering me, but I didn’t pay much attention to it. I figured it was just a little sore from running so hard on Sunday.

I ended up messing with my Curves Tool scripts for a while. I got the tool fully updated and integrated with the new additions. I got an outline created for my podcast demo, and even started recording it.

There are 8 parts to record, and I’m about halfway through them.

I ended up running into an issue with one while I was demonstrating it. I spent more of my night trying to figure it out, only to realize that it was an issue with the scene itself and not the script. Talk about frustration. I was trying to fix the wrong thing for two hours, when all I needed to do was delete something. /flips tables

Oh well. Drove that lessen home… Be more aware of the scene you are working in. Got it.

I took a nap for a little while before working on the script. I had planned to run to Jo Ann Fabrics because I need a skein of thread for Tre’s project, but my shin started seriously hurting, so that killed any motivation to leave my room.

It was almost too much to walk out to my car to go to work. It was hard to breathe through the pain. It’s only my left shin, and it’s only along the inside of my shinbone. It feels like a crowbar is bashing against it though. Shattering it. It wasn’t to the point of tears, but it was close, and it sucked.

I wore my compression sleeve all night, which helped a little, but I spent most of my time rolling around the lab in my computer chair rather than walking to avoid putting weight on it.

When lab was over I went to the down stairs break room. I would have had to crawl up the stairs to get to ‘me desk’, which didn’t sound fun or worth it.

I had gotten Chinese food for dinner and had left it in the break room before I went into lab. I finished it off while I tried to fix my script, which is when I realized my silly error. At least I got it figured out before going to sleep.

One I got the script ‘working’ again I packed up and came home where I went to sleep.

I had two dreams last night, which I wrote about. Not sure how I feel about them. I’m going to be checking my wallet shortly to make sure I still actually have my card…

There’s a woman interested in the chest of drawers. Not sure if I wrote about that or not. She’s going to have her husband come by Friday to pick it up. So that’s cool.

Mom and I are trying to figure out how to get my futon and a few other things down to the new apartment during spring break. Originally I was going to fly home and drive a UHual back to Florida on my own, but plane tickets are $300… WTF?

It’s only $211 to fly to Vegas… which is like… three times the distance. Seriously…

So we’re still kicking ideas around. I might take a train home. I would rather not do bus.

I’m feeling alright this morning. Low energy since I’m still recovering from not sleeping much the other night. My leg still hurts, but not as bad. That might be because I haven’t walked on it aside from making my coffee.

I didn’t go to aikido last night, and I don’t know if I’ll be going tonight either. It depends on how my shin feels later. Today is supposed to be a two-mile run which totally isn’t happening.

I hate it when my body hurts. Hurts as in, “is injured.” This isn’t muscle soreness, this isn’t being lazy, or something I need to work through.

This is I pushed too hard and now I’m having to deal with the consequences. And it sucks. It hurts just enough to pull my thoughts away from what I would rather be focusing on. And just enough to make me intimidated about moving. But even staying still hurts, so it’s not like it’s benefiting me to say in bed.

Frustration. Gah.

So I don’t know what I’ll be doing today. I have school work that’s due, so I need to get my block out done before tonight. Brain storming for my other assignment would be good as well since that’s due tomorrow. There’s also grading that Clavan wants done before Thursday evening.

Overall I think I have a handle on things. I just wish I didn’t feel wounded.