I don’t feel like I’m going to die anymore, which is nice.
I ended up going to sleep around 8 last night and was totally out. I woke up around 3 in the morning, completely awake and feeling fine. Since everyone was still asleep I poked around on WoW for a few hours and got my priest to level 21.
I’m still pretty congested, but like I said, I feel so much better compared to what I did yesterday.
Nathan and John are going to get a divorce. I can’t really say that I didn’t see it coming. It sucks, and I feel bad for both of them, but I would rather they end it now, then suffering just to end the relationship later.
I’m probably a bad person to talk to about relationships anyway. With everything that I have gone through in the past few years I really can’t say that I would give all that much in one.
Maybe that makes me selfish, but to make the changes I want to see in myself I have to focus most of my energy inward, which doesn’t leave much to give outside of myself.
I think I am going to favor personal growth over relationships for a while.
John was able to switch Nathan’s original ticket for an earlier flight, so Nathan left this afternoon. Last night was awkward enough. I don’t think any of us would have been able to handle that level of tension for a whole week.
I went to the library yesterday afternoon to work on homework, which sort of sucked. My assignment was due on Friday, rather than Sunday, so it was late, and this class doesn’t take late turn ins… so I got a zero on my 3rd exam.
It was my own fault. I should have been more on top of the due dates.
I went ahead and did all of the work for the exam. I’m hoping that my teacher will go over it just to make sure that I’m getting all of concepts correct. Maybe she’ll actually grade it because I’ve been such an active participant in the class so far. Please love me, Karma.
There aren’t any new tutorials for week 4. It’s just working on the main project, which is due the 19th.
I also finished off the last discussion assignment so I wouldn’t have to worry about it.
Frank was online when I was playing WoW, so we chatted a little bit about work. And Mother Earth was online, too.
Not a lot has happened today other than John taking Nathan to the airport.
I went to Walmart with mom and Lio, which wore me out. I can feel my body dragging and a headache forming.
We were talking about going back to the range today, but it would be to shoot guns, and I’m not all that into guns. So I might see if I can stay home with mom instead.
Mom and I leave to go home Wednesday I think.
It’s always so confusing. I don’t want to leave my family, but I would give anything to have a room to myself. Or my cup of coffee at my kitchen table. My morning routine. My cat curled up next to me.
I guess trips like this helps to put everything in perspective. I love my family more than anything in the world, but they still get on my nerves, and as much as I felt alone in Florida before this trip, there’s a lot of good things there for me.
Everything has a negative, but everything has a positive too.