Well… if you read my last post, you probably know I’m full for fire right now. Like, ‘I can’t sit still or I’ll destroy something’ sort of fire.

Anger, burning in my soul, and not simply for myself. Anger because I know I’m not the only person who feels this way. I’m not the only introvert who feels caged or looked down on.

Society can be a wonderful, caring thing, but it can also be cruel and biased.

I’ll be fine once I get this energy out. Promise. And writing helps, so yeah. No need to worry about me jumping the first extrovert to greets me and destroying their world.

Yesterday was nice and relaxing again.

I finished off the last book in the Percy Jackson series. I can’t say it was my favorite series. But for a young adult book it wasn’t bad. It was a cute read… err listen?

I’m going to start the Hunger Games next I think.

I’m very close to being done with my cousin’s cross stitch.

I would have finished it yesterday but Frank ended up messaging me. He and Natalie were playing WoW so I ended up playing with them.

First I went to the gym, so at least there was that. I might have been a slacker, but I was a healthy slacker! : D

I biked 10 miles and then did some yoga. I got to the gym super late, so I didn’t have time to shower before they closed. I had to come home to do that. Which wasn’t a bad thing.

After I dried off I put on one of my new shirts and wore it to school. The Internet has been acting finicky at the apartment, and with Joshua playing one of his games, I didn’t want to have to fight for bandwidth.

So I got dressed and headed to school to play with Frank.

I guess that’s one of my quirks. If I get something new, I don’t feel comfortable with it. I have to get used to it. Like with my Mazda 2. For the first week that I had it, it really didn’t feel like ‘mine’.

I didn’t dislike the car, but I didn’t know if I really liked it either. I needed time to figure it out. And with each passing day I love my car more and more.

The same is true for my cloths. Until I wear them a few times I don’t feel comfortable in them. I don’t feel like they are really ‘mine’.

So wearing one of the new shirts to school and just hanging out there being casual was a good thing. I wore the red top because I wanted a strength color. Red is the root chakra, stability. It felt good to wear it.

And it was perfect at school. Since it was a Saturday night, no one was in the break room. So I was able to enjoy myself without disturbing anyone, or worrying about them disturbing me.

Just me and a bubble of aloneness.

I ended up getting to level 15 on a human mage. They’re on a PVE server, and we now have a guild called “Agents of Apathy”. I love it.

We were trying to get “Hates You”, but it was already taken. So lame.

Anyway, it was a really good night. The only down side was I didn’t watch any of the tutorials I had tentatively planned to do, or finish my project.

I liked that I was social instead though. It reminded me a lot of the ‘old days’ where I would play WoW with my first boyfriend, or my two closest friends. Questing and chatting through VoiP.

I came home around 2am and passed out.

I’ve had my coffee, though I might have a second cup. And I’ve had breakfast and my vitamin. Today I’m going to be doing most of my chores and cooking.

In one week, literally seven days, I leave to go home for the holiday break. I’m getting stoked about it. I already have a list going of things I need to remember to pack. I want to see my mom again. I want to hug my brothers.

Thinking about seeing them fills me with warmth and love, and makes my eyes burn. Stupid emotions always having to manifest themselves as tears. HSP issues…

“Why are you crying? I thought you were mad at me?”

“I am mad at you! I’ve killed you 9 different ways inside of my head.!”

“Then… why are you crying?”

“Gah!!!!! I kill you!”

Anyway…

I might go to the gym again today and row. I’m trying to avoid running to give my shins some time to heal up. Since it’s Sunday there aren’t many classes going on, though there is a power yoga class at 1pm I could go to. We’ll see.

But as for the majority of my day. Cleaning, prepping for the coming week, and I want to block off at least 4 hours to devote to school.

After that I can give myself over, guilt free, to the void that is WoW.