I meant to write last night.

It was actually pretty perfect timing. I finished a section of my cross stitch right as a chapter ended in my book. I was going to write before scooping up Scarlet and going to sleep, since it was around two in the morning.

Scarlet had other ideas, though.

She got up and stretched, then crawled into my lap, across my laptop, and made herself comfy, along with making it impossible for me to type. Two birds with one stone. Cat logic.

It made me realize that my time with her is limited, and I couldn’t bring myself to make her move. She was purring, and so content that I just petted her.

Her recent vet visit was sobering. I’ve had her for 15 years. Bonnie was 18 when she passed. And if we’re being honest, the average lifespan of domestic cats is roughly 15 years, so that’s an even more sobering fact.

It makes me realize how all of my little interactions with Scarlet, like when she’s super annoying, and keeping me from writing, are precious, because one day she won’t be here to do that.

Sorry if those seem like super depressing thoughts. It’s where my mind went last night. And for me they aren’t really depressing or sad. I mean, I feel pain at the thought of losing her. But that is life. That’s a fact.

One day I will wake up and she won’t.

It’s realistic. Neither good nor bad. It simply is. It exists and ignoring it, or being angry about it won’t change anything.

I know that day will be hard. Insanely hard. And I know I will need the strength of those closest to me.

But it will hurt because I have so many good memories. It will hurt because I she is my baby, because I love her, and love is a beautiful thing.

I don’t know if I’m making any sense.

Because my time is limited I value and cherish all of the moments I have with her.

So, since Scarlet wanted cuddle time last night writing got pushed off until this morning. Sorry Internet, the cat had spoken.

Yesterday was a really nice, slow day. Some might call it boring, but I’m ok with that. There was no rushing, no fires to put out, no demands. And I still got a bunch of stuff done. In my book it was great.

I spent a fair amount of time catching up on WordPress. Several of the blogs I follow had new posts that I hadn’t kept up with because I’m a slacker. I read through all of them, and commented on several. I also wrote a few posts of my own.

After that I figured out my meals for the week. Since I travel back home Sunday (which I totally can’t wait for) I only needed to figure out my next six days. I made up my shopping list, showered and headed out to get all of my shopping done.

I hadn’t eaten since cooking breakfast around 8ish, and it was already pushing 3pm, so I stopped by Publix for a treat. Sushi. : D

I had half of it while I sat in the parking lot listening to my music. That used to be a tradition that I stopped doing once I moved out of the apartment with Jarrett. When ever I went grocery shopping I would get a sushi tray with a Bolt House drink. Sort of like a reward for going out and dealing with people and not killing anyone in the process.

Normally I get the mocha coffee one, but since Publix didn’t seem to have that flavor stocked at the moment I got the Green Goddess instead.

It made me think of my Mother Earth since that’s her favorite flavor. It also made me feel good to be doing something so familiar, going back to a routine.

Once I had eaten I went to the pet store to figure out Seth’s heat lamp. I got a ceramic bulb, and returned the UV bulb and heat lamp that I had gotten earlier in the week. The guys were super nice about me returning everything.

After that I went to Walmart. I was only going to pick up some burgers, but I ended up doing all of my grocery shopping there.

There was a bunch of clearance racks still, so I poked through those and got three new long sleeve shirts. One black, one a darker teal, and one a red. I really like all three of them, and they are more girly than the t-shirts I normally toss on. They’re also solid colors, no designs or anything flashing / frilly.

I think I’ll be really comfortable wearing them even though they are a bit more feminine.

Surprisingly there was literally no line when I went to check out. No line… on Black Friday… Twilight Zone much?

The cashier was really nice and said that it has been a slow day actually.

After I got done there I ate the rest of the sushi tray and went home to put the groceries away. I changed back into my pjs, made a nest on the couch, and hunkered down to listen to my book and cross stitch.

After a few hours Joshua and Susan came out to cook dinner. We talked for a while until they went back into Joshua’s room. At that point I realized I was hungry and that eating might be a good idea.

I ended up ordering General Tso’s chicken and some broccoli from a Chinese place really close to my apartment. I had to run out to get sliced cheese anyway so adding ‘pick up dinner’ to the to-do list made it worth getting changed into presentable cloths again.

I had forgotten to write down cheese on the list for the burgers, so I naturally I didn’t buy it while I was at the store earlier.

It worked out really well though since the Chinese place is in the same plaza as another grocery store I was able to run in real quick and pick up my last item before getting dinner. Success!

I came back home, ate and kept on stitching. I only have a handful of chapters left in my book, and the story is getting interesting.

I’m over halfway done with my new cross stitch. I am not sure if I’ll get through the rest of it today. If I do, it most likely will happen later in the evening.

At the moment I don’t really have anything hardcore planned for today. Much like yesterday. And again, I’m cool with that.