Gratitude:
I am grateful for waking up and not feeling like death.
#1 Goal:
Complete the rental application for the house. Also, pay bills so I know how broke I am.
#1 Concern
I’m worried I’ll start feeling like crap as the day goes on.
#1 Achievement:
Deepening my level of self-awareness so I can continue becoming a better version of myself.
Gratitude:
I am grateful for warm blankets, sleep hypnosis files, and working from home so I can be miserable in peace. Ok… maybe “miserable” is being a little dramatic… but only a little. >.>
#1 Goal:
Finish my cross-stitch since I talked to my brother instead of working on it. It was worth it though. We had a good conversation.
#1 Concern
Being too tired to survive the grocery trip with Ox.
#1 Achievement:
Sleeping for most of the night and showering before 10am this morning.
Gratitude:
I am grateful for tasty burritos delivered with love and hugs.
#1 Goal:
Survived. Yeah… we’re back to survival. Fun times…
#1 Concern
Getting through the workday.
#1 Achievement:
Getting a bunch of chores done yesterday.
Gratitude:
I am grateful for tissues with aloe/soothing lotion.
#1 Goal:
Picking up my meds.
#1 Concern
Feeling like crap.
#1 Achievement:
Figuring out how to fall asleep last night while being congested and managing to wake up before 9AM.
Gratitude:
I am grateful for the people in my life who help me find clear perspective.
#1 Goal:
I don’t know… shower? Maybe putting my not-needed cross-stitch stuff up…
#1 Concern
It never being summer again because summer was a hallucination I created in my head as a way to cope with never ending winter.
#1 Achievement:
Writing consistently for over a week. /flex
Gratitude:
I am grateful for full nights of sleep. <3
#1 Goal:
File taxes. Spoiler. I already did it. /flex
#1 Concern
Resting so I don’t get sick again / finish getting over whatever it is I have.
#1 Achievement:
Finding self-acceptance for my current situation.
Gratitude:
I am grateful for not having to work until later in the afternoon instead of zero-dark-thirty in the morning that way I can spend hours not being able to sleep and still manage to get a nap in before work.
#1 Goal:
Making my final meal before the cauliflower goes bad.
#1 Concern
Still my unstable dynamic.
#1 Achievement:
I achieved my goal yesterday. I also have a five-day writing streak according to WordPress. Pretty content with those two things.
Gratitude:
I am grateful for solitude and inner strength.
#1 Goal:
Finish the two cross stitch patterns which are closest to completion.
#1 Concern
I ended my unstable dynamic.
#1 Achievement:
I cleaned the kitchen last night and made another one of my meals. I also showered. It seems so dumb to type those things as achievements. For me, they are. I could have done nothing. I could have let my depression and anxiety eat away at me. Though those things did hinder my ability to sleep, I’m proud that I still accomplished things within my life even if they were small things.
Gratitude:
I am grateful for space heaters that keep my toes warm.
#1 Goal:
Survive. I slept like crap due to post-nasal drip. My throat is sore. I’m freezing… and I have a billion hours of work ahead of me. At least I’m at home. There are a lot of advantages to my situation now than three months ago. I feel incredibly tired, but overall I’m fine. Just have to get through the day so I can go back to sleep.
#1 Concern
I don’t know. A few things I guess. That I have covid is one of them. I don’t feel super awful, but I do feel way more shitty than I did yesterday morning.
The real concern I guess I one of my dynamics. I don’t know if she reads my blog. Well… I know she has read it. I don’t know if she read my last posts and if she did if that is in some way where the emails I received yesterday stemmed from.
I don’t feel well and I don’t have it in me right now. I’m concerned this is going to blow up into a huge issue again and right now I would rather avoid it than struggle.
#1 Achievement:
Getting clocked into work on time. Super proud of myself for not taking eto or vto. Nope. Here I am, getting paid while I feel like shit. I’m even writing. Go me.